it's about work too

unlike peggy, i can only do things like blogging after work. and if blogging is about work, i doubt i should do that in full view to anybody walking around. msn is almost risky. listening to music is also risky. these things that keep me alive and happy at work are risky. i learned to find reasons to walk around more often. proud to do so. but i believe i get ppl staring and wondering if i'm doing my work at all.

politics in office too. human and human. i shall just listen. politics about the office too. how interestingly things is going around the place. and i discovered my own view about things and people too. but the everybody will just go on as if nothing is wrong. with a smile too.

i'm just doing intern for 5 weeks. how come i feel like there's so many things i seemed to need to do? things didn't go on so well for the informal interviews as i would expect, couldn't find as much potential interviewee as i seemed to have searched for all the possible associations that's around, i've to do an audition which i seemed to be left hanging, people too busy to confirm stuff with me, things i didn't know until someone else tell me when i was supposed to be in charged of it (can't blame also cos she oversees me but i'm absolutely fine with her), unreplied emails that makes me wonder if those associations are still alive, empty promises zero replies, and some others which i can't remember what.

if don't want trouble to look for potential interviewees, then just reply back and tell me that, so that i don't have to keep wondering and waiting until i finish my internship. i open google everyday and type in keywords and get useless sites in return. they never reply. no matter how wonderful they talk about their association, they never reply.

i'm disliking pre-production more and more. it makes me love the little shoots that i had on tuesday and wednesday, and dislike the thursday that i came in for work. the shoot was tiring and frustrating at first, but at least i was doing something i enjoy, even though things did fuck up on my side but was able to resolve. maybe it's just pre-pro, or maybe it's just the work i'm being assigned, it wasn't fun at all.

and some other smallest things that adds on to the stuff i have to worry about. and recently the way certain things are done that makes me wonder more. it adds up, i cannot pin-point exactly what though. (pls dun be too sensitive abt the above 2 sentences. if your conscience is clear, then it's surely not you.) all the small things that adds up. feel free to clarify with me first. never fucking assume. i hate that.

it's been such a long time since i watched the martial arts serial. i'm missing it more and more. and it's been such a long time since i played guitar. i can't seemed to find the time to find ernie ball super slinky. i'm seriously longing for some break. i think i need some love. hahaha