first gig

yep yesterday, was our first gig for tripping candies... wasn't really enjoying myself cos everybody at the cc are very fake... fake smiles watever... everybody's still not happy with each other... they're saying we din help them when in the first place no one informed the rest of the members to help how the fuck are they going to help... then the guys were asking me when is wat, wat is wat i was quite embarassed to say i dunno... someone who is supposed to be in the organising team yet dunno wat is going on... they made changes without me knowing, then totally push welch out of the team for no reason... maybe cos he wasn't able to make in the first few meetings... then whenever i was present for the meetings, they choose to discuss in malay... den they totally din tell me about meetings... so i'm like, okay, fine, dun tell me anything, i won't be helping. i was actually put in charge to look after the stage and stuff but i decide not to help them cos they've got all the malay frens to help them and if i were to be there, i will be outcasted cos they will be talking in malay again. i hate the feeling of not belonging anywhere and being outcasted.
that sucks.
there's a lot more... it's annoying...
i was very pissed i hope the guys are not finding me a bad company... but i was feeling better when we went to my house for dinner... just sit around and chill and eat and stone... the performing part is okay bah haha... but i made some mistakes here and there...
not bad for our first gig bah... it's my first time performing playing guitar and with a band, it's the first declan perform playing guitar, first time for john to play drums, first time terence perform playing bass, first time ismail sing in front ot the crowds... really our first, debut gig... haha good tt everybody kind of start at the same level... hahaha watever the hell... but it's quite okay bah...
aki, peggy, ying ru, haslinda, daniel, fiona, felicia was there as well... aki came with the guys when i waited for them at the interchange... initially i tot i'll just let the guys come by themselves but i can't stand staying at the cc anymore so i decided to get out... nobody cared anyways... so bored... okay enuff
i think i've said a lot ... wat the hell