roar

this looks so sweet...
dream of sianifornication

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feeling damn sian... feeling like shit everyday now... working too hard having no life everyday the same routine. getting more bad tempered maybe cos of the noise in the shop. everyday noise noise noise. it's like the kids dun have exams. exam period more kids. now i'm waiting for time to pass to go work. i can't think of any days to take a leave that's why i keep working and working.

yesterday jamming, i cut my finger. in fact i sliced my finger cos i was trying to find out if it is possible to slide on rusted strings. i slide and slide and slice my finger. greatness. after that, after chilling at ameen (the last time i went there was more than a month ago... the whole april is ameenless) i sat at the bus stop alone. in the middle of the center bench. i waited and waited. i looked away, my bus ran away. was fucking pissed. wanted to kick myself. i waited and waited until i saw ismail, dec and john.

been very unlucky these days... sunday, i wore slippers to work. my slippers got stepped on twice, each time on each slipper. then at work i was coiling the wires, i let the controller connector fall and it falls straight to my toes... not once, not twice but more than three times. fucking suay. all within a day. that day was mother's day... i bought this cake and the bread talk girl say she will keep it for me cos the cake needs to be kept in the fridge. i paid and left for work... after work and jamming i rushed back to retrieve my cake. the shop was closed but i saw peeples inside, i went up and called the peeples. gave them the receipt. they came back telling me that cannot find my cake. my cake went missing le. they returned me my money. i went home. wat shit lor... fucking irresponsible... but i managed to get my ma another cake at cheers... of all place, cheers.

oh wells time for work. work.

I'M BACK PEEPLES ROAR

yah my connection has no problem just my stupid laptop that fucked up... anyways, i dun think anyone will come here anymore since i've stopped updating for more than a month... seriously i've not come online for more than a month... the whole april is internetless... sadness. i've just reformatted my laptop... anyhow do one... took so much time.

oh yah i'm having me off day today tt's y i'm so free... been working like a buffalo (watever animal... an ant maybe?) these days... all for one little single thing called money... oh wells, i'm like having no life... but i'm still having a life wahaha at least better than last year... much much better... last year at this point of time, before sch starts, before poly, before everything, before being called a punk girl, before my lovely f-a-t-e-s, before my lovely band, before my lovely frens, i'm antisocial-lonely-boring-shy-ignorant girl. everyday i'll just work work work and work and work then rest then work and work and work .......... going on and on and on...... fucking no life. total sadness thinking back but i managed to have cash for sch. and not to mention a PS2. my lovely blue darling.

then sch starts my life turn upside down... or rightside up. watever it is.

now now now i'm waiting for time to pass, waiting for my windows update update itself, am going to jam later (who wld have guessed i will ever have a band)

okay enuff crap wahahaha just want to let the world knoe i'm still alive... roar