chasing blocks

editing for block-chase is done. it seemed not to be wat it's supposed to be... but we shall have to see. i'm numbed out, probably the lack of sleep, probably the stress. i'm so cold now. too cold. it's been the whole day of coldness for me. i'm paranoid too. i've been too paranoid these last few days. at everything. small things big things. i'll have to see about tt.

sometimes it's good to sit down, close your eyes, with music in ears and let ur mind wander.

i can go on and listen to unintended the whole day. i hope i can learn how to play it. i can go on and eat chocolate the whole day too. maybe i should open a chocolate shop someday.

i'm still sitting around in the matrox, listening to songs, blogging and freezing. sometimes i think won't life be easier if i'm not a human. if i'm a goldfish, i won't have any worries. i'll see something new every 3 secs. life is so much exciting cos everything looks new to me everytime i see it. but too bad, there won't be any memories of anything at all. but then again, soon i'll die and i won't have anything i'll miss terribly, no worries. swim round and round in circles until i die. but right now, i'm a human. tt seemed like a stupid and boring life. maybe a better example of a good and carefree life would be to be a child with a good life. the world is so colourful and joyful. no worries, just play and eat whole day. they get what they want. whoever you quarrel with now will be your best friend the next hour. it's so beautiful.