i actually wrote halfway in sch but the connection fucked up and everything was lost. so i write again.
the tagboards are fucked up dunno wat happened... can't read posts everyway...
finally IS is over... i'm so relieved... like i've said before a trillion times, it's a fucking waste of my time.
now i'm doing sock sai ppt slides... i love doing ppt slides wahahaha but damn sian... sianification... night is still young... not in the hurry to hurry with it... am still waiting for stuff to come anyways...
oh yah, and my spider tangled up... stupid spider, got killed in it's own web. i tot i'm going to make it a nicer home, but it died... sighhhhh... The third spider i tried to breed but failed. A third time that ain't lucky for me. but then again, i gave it food it dunwan to eat.
watever.
life's full of life and death. can't be helped. can't escape it.
i'm always thinking why am i born in this particular century, this particular year, living in this particular day... and why i have this life, why i'm born, how it will be like if my ma and pa had not been together, then there won't be a me. then i'll think y there's a me and y now and y i look like i do and y i am wat i am.
i'll then think about wat will happen in the future, wat will i be doing, where will i live, whether i'll be happy, whether i'll be rich, well maybe not very rich but enough for my survival. then, somehow i'll go back to thinking why there's a me and y i live in this particular country and place called earth.
whenever i think of earth, i'll think about wat is outside earth. earth is in the solar system, the solar system is in the milky way, the milky way is just another small little galaxy in the whole universe. then i'm stuck. what is outside the universe? wat is behind all the blackness? is it some kind of cloth thingy or barrier or watever that separates this universe from another or is the universe a big round ball and someone or something is probably having this ball, on a rack, among all the other balls of universes. maybe the other balls of universes are of different timelines. then i'll think and think and think until i can almost faint.
